Sunday, October 17, 2010
What a night
I had a breakdown tonight. Those kinds of breakdowns that have you wandering outside, as if the breathe of
fresh air could calm you down. I acted like a crazy person; jittery and teary eyed. I've been crying a lot recently and sometimes I don't even have an actual purpose, even though in the moment I think I'm right to. These aren't short tears either. These are long, loud cries and I could feel this sadness run through my whole body. I become miserable and tonight was definitely the icing for this week. I suppose it's because I feel alone a lot. The fact that I never get out, unless it's to school, is really depressing. I wanted to be anywhere but here today but it didn't happen. I don't know why I don't just get in my car and drive. I wish I had an escape to go to. Then I think about all the things I need to get done and it keeps me from going anywhere.